See this sweet baby?
She turned 11 on Sunday. 11 years. That's how long I've been a mommy. And in all of those years, I've had millions of blessed moments with my children. But it was just recently that I had one of the best. One of the proudest and heart swelling moments I could possibly imagine.
It was a simple thing really. We were sitting on the floor in the living room. I was cutting out some fabric and had asked Emily's opinion on something trivial, the style of the leotard I was cutting out. She hesitated and then told me what she thought.
A few minutes later she spoke up again.
E: mom, can I tell you something?
me: Sure sweetie, what's up?
E: Sometimes I worry.
E: I worry.....that I'm not going to be like you
That's what my 11 year old, almost a teenager daughter worries about. That she is not enough like her mom.
And I'm nobody special. I'm not famous. I don't have a degree. I'm not even a stay at home mom, there to volunteer at school and attend every field trip.
I'm always late.
I don't keep a spiffed up, decorated house, in fact, she can't even paint her room, because we rent.
I give my kids too much junk food and let them watch too much tv.
But she wants to be like me, to think like me.
I can't even write this without getting emotional. What compliment of my life could top that?
What better reward for all of the hard work of parenting?
At Emily's colonial day dance, I watched all of the kids. Only a third of them dressed up. There were a lot of downcast glances and insecure shuffles.
Afterwards I told Emily how proud I was of her. Not only how well she learned and performed her dance, but how she held her head high, she smiled at her partner and held his hands, and danced without reservation. If she felt anything less than confidence and joy, it didn't show, and I'm so proud that she can embrace life with a smile.
She thanked me and said
"Mom, you make me feel like such a good person"
I told her
"Emily, you're one of the best people I know"
And it couldn't be truer.
As flattered as I am that she wants to be like me...I'm so very proud of who she is.
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