Thursday, January 8, 2009

And the pendulum has swung the other way

So yesterday I was sluggish and tired, today I'm restless and impatient. I'm starting to feel bipolar with all these mood swings. But hey, I'm a woman, I can always chalk it up to hormones.
Do you ever feel like life is passing you by? Like you're just trying to keep your footing and not fall over and everyone else is waltzing by? That's how I'm feeling this morning. And I'm not even middle aged yet. It's not time for a mid-life crisis. I just feel like there is so much more I could be doing, but I'm not exactly sure what? Which direction do I go? How do I make the MOST out of my life. It can't be sitting in this office doing paperwork. It just can't.
I also know that the answer is in me, it's up to me to find it. No one can answer these questions for me.
For the first 14 years of my life, we moved around. A lot. Lots of new places, lots of new faces, and for the second 14 years I've been living in the same city where I was born, going to school, working, school, work, raising my kids and just hanging on....and I feel, well, I feel like I'm spinning my tires and not getting anywhere.

Please forgive my mundane introspection. I'm sure my attitude will have changed again tomorrow.

1 comment:

Billjwalsh said...

Hang in there Sis I'm sure one day you and the family will just pack up and head for Vegas or Florida. So you can start and finish school again and land some amazing JOB that affords you all the luxuries in life that you ever wanted. Someday you will wake up and decide that today is the day, And take a leap of faith out of your comfort zone and the family will back you you 100%.